No white towel…yet

Yesterday I was thinking it may be time for Plan B. But I just cannot accept that yet.

I have a problem with my other foot now. I thought it was the Sarcoidosis flaring up but right now I’m not thinking that at all. I’m kind of leaning toward the fall from two weeks ago. I certainly know better than to wear crocks in the snow…but it was only about 2 feet of walking. Huh…it only took 2 steps and I was down.

My ankle started hurting a little but nothing to stop me from activity really. But I did rest it a bit. This week the swelling is bad…the ache is bad. Thus, the conclusion of a sarc flare-up. The prednisone is not helping – a little with the swelling, none with the pain, none with the sensation of a freezing cold foot, and is really helping my crabbiness level increase.

I have an appt with a sports ortho Monday. Until then, I will be swimming or pretending that nothing is wrong and continuing on. But I tried that yesterday and it was not smart really. So swimming it is. I’m even buying a second suit so I can swim twice a day. I can do some of my PT and some of my strength training. I’m holding off on biking until I talk to the doc. The top of my foot hurts, the side of my foot hurts and I don’t want to do further damage if there is something wrong. Maybe it’s sarc and it will just hurt. But I need to find out.

I’m not throwing in the towel…not yet…but I will not wait as long as Apollo Creed either. That would be a mistake.

If it comes to that there is a Plan B. It’s still an athletic endeavor. It would also push me to limits I have not known.

Ease on Down the Road

Yeah right.

I’m not that good at ‘easing’. When I have made up my mind to do something I want to do it. I don’t want to get dressed to get on a treadmill for 20 minutes. Oh no…that would be silly. If I am going to get dressed and go to the gym at 5am you can bet I will be on the treadmill for 3 miles.

Likewise, I don’t bike just 10 miles and I don’t swim just ¼ mile.

But I think it is a lesson I need to learn. Even if I am going to be on the treadmill 3 miles I need to learn to make part of it easy until I’m ready. I cannot have a PB every single time I jog/walk. Yes, I will have to push myself to get better but not at the expense of staying injury free or getting so sore I don’t even want to get out of bed for three days.

My inclination is to power through to the bitter end. But I don’t want the end to be bitter. It does feel good to push yourself and do more than before. But easing into running is the right way. It is the best way. It is the smart way.

When I’m going ‘slow’ this is how I feel:
Cause there may be times when you think you lost your mind
And the steps you're taking leave you three four steps behind
But the road you're walking might be long sometimes
You just keep on stepping and you'll be just fine.

But I’m going to ease. I am. Really.